Changes

So I've been thinking lately about how much things have changed. I know things always change but some things really bother me.

I grew up with a couple cousins that were really close to my age. One was two months younger than me and one was about a year. We saw each other regularly and did everything together. They were my favorite people to spend time with, especially my older cousin. She also had a little sister that was almost the same age as my sister, so it worked out perfectly. I remember playing magnent horses, running around the golf course dressed up, and having hair parties. We always told each other I was going to be the first to get married and we would be eachothers bridesmaids for all of our weddings

But things have changed. My little sister is closer to those cousins than I am. I guess it's partly my fault, but who knows. I know part of it is that I'm not as "religious" as they are. But that shouldn't matter either. People should love you no matter what. I saw my older cousin a couple weeks before the wedding for a few minutes and I almost cried. We didn't have as much to talk about and it felt awkward like she didn't know what to say. She and my sister had lots to talk about, even though Wendy is four years younger than her and in a different place in life.
My two closest cousins and my sister were my bridesmaids like planned. But it didn't feel like they wanted to be there. Like it was too much of an inconvinience for them to show up. I didn't get a bridal shower, bacherlorette party, or anything. I didn't expect much, but it was the biggest day of my life so far and it really felt like that didn't matter to them. Maybe I expected too much, but when you plan your wedding in your head since you were little, you want it to be special.
I saw my cousin that's two months younger than me at her brother's wedding in July I think. It was the first time I'd seen her since the wedding. We didn't have much to talk about either. Nothing to really relate about. Once again I almost cried because this was a girl I had know since birth.
And we had nothing to talk about.

Like I said before, maybe it was my fault. I should have tried harder, gone to church more, married in the temple so they could relate. But that's not how it turned out and I'm happy with who I married and my life, even if I'm not perfect. I miss and love my cousins a lot. I kinda hope they read this since I'm too shy to tell them how I really feel. Love you Erica and Jaimie.

Home

So lately I have been wanting to move into a new place so badly. I really, really, really don't like our landlords. They have know Corey since he was about 5, and they take advantage of that. The hard part about finding a new place is finding a pet friendly one.
I can't wait to buy a house. I know it's a ton of debt, but I can't wait to have to chance to pick things exactly how I want. Corey and I eventually want to build our dream home, but that won't be for a while. I've always wanted something like this for our first home.

I love the little cottage-type places. Their is a place for rent here in Vernal that is so so perfect, but the rent is more than double what we want to pay. I've had dreams about this cottage house because of how badly I want to live there. It's right across the street from the hospital so maybe some of you in Vernal know the place I'm talking about. I want to get a picture of it so I can design my own house something like it one day.

I'm still doing my training and dieting. It's so hard to stay motivated, but I'm getting there. I have to pack my food and remember exactly when to eat, remember what to make the night before so I have it to eat before I go to work, and find time to work out. Sometimes I really just want to say "Screw it! I want chocolate!" But then I look at my figure idol Jamie Eason. She has the PERFECT body!
My trainer is Amara from TeamCrazyFit. Check out the website at teamcrazyfit.com. She is so so awesome!

October 8th

So it's official. The show I'm planning on doing is October 8th. That gives me about 13 weeks to be totally prepared. And suprise, suprise, I'm not doing Bikini. I decided my physique is more Figure. Everything I've read and all the competitors I've seen all point that I'm figure. Plus the Bikini girls look kinda eh...slutty. I'm pretty sure if I win my overall group I get a Pro card which is huge for me. I hope bodybuilding takes me somewhere good, where I can inspire and motivate people. My parents always had a hard time of me wanting to do bodybuilding and shows. My mom got pretty offended when I wouldn't eat what she made because of my diet. They both belive in the standard LDS beliefs and felt like this was using my body in the wrong way. When I did my show in high school they seemed to understand why it was important to me. My Dad was so proud of me after I finished. I'll always remember how big his smile was. I'm hoping with this professional show I can show them more that it can be used for the positive.
I feel very lucky to have a husband who is so supportive. He is willing to diet with me, work out with me, push me, and tell me to stop whining and be a big girl. I hate him during those moments, especially running, but it's worth it in the end. I can't wait till he does a show and I can motivate him. He really is the best.
Hopefully I stay this motivated every day until the show. If you have any tips let me know and if I'm not doing it, I'll add it in to my workout, or diet, or whatever it has to do with. I can't wait to reach this new goal.

Starting Out

So I was finally able to figure out how to get on my blog. My computer really seems to hate me.
So to start out this is our little blog. I (Becca) will be doing all the posting cuz Corey isn't into that kind of stuff but I guess it's still our blog. I'll probably just post random things going on in our life and stuff like that.

I guess I can start now. So far marriage is awesome. We have our good days, and our bad days for sure. It's crazy it's already been about six months. I know I've learned a lot already, and I hope to learn more.

Right now Corey and I are both working full time. He just started a job that pays about five dollars more an hour so I'm excited about that, but he'll be working more hours. We will have to make use of the limited time we already have. I don't have a consistent schedule so when we do have the same days off, or are home at the same time it's awesome. I'm looking for a job right now that has more consistent hours, especially once school starts again.

We recently added an addition to our family. I had bought Corey a Pug for his birthday about three years ago, and I decided I wanted a dog of my own. We found a Pitbull at the pound that we loved and named him Chevelle. It was quite the process to get him, but it was worth it. He's two years old and stubborn, but we're working with him. He's the sweetest dog I've ever met.

My New Years resolution was to lose weight and compete in a figure competition. So far not so good. I've stayed about the same weight, but haven't been consistent in the gym. I'm probably going to just do a Bikini competiton instead, and cross over to Figure my next show. I'll probably talk about my progress and would love to hear motivating words from everyone. I'll also post the workouts and food I'm eating so you can use those if you are wanting to lose weight or gain muscle. Every single day I have to look at a photo like this to remember why it's worth it in the end.

Hopefully I can get this whole blog thing figured out so I can make it look cool like everyone elses. So I guess that's it for now. Hope you enjoy.